I almost screamed today

I've been doing pretty well. Holding it together so far, keeping my emotions @ bay, feigning sanity. But today though, today, I wanted to lose it. Today though, today, I wanted to scream. When she walked in, with it in tow. With the one thing I want so badly. With the one thing I'm told I can't have. The one thing he's looking into as I write. Right. Now. I don't want to be strong any longer...but I have to be. Why though? Why? I hear one thing, I see another, I dream another, and feel...feel what exactly? Do I feel? Do I feel right now? Am I letting myself feel? Or am I on autopilot? Am I? I try not to think about it. Try not to get weighed down. But that's not always possible. Not even feasible. To whom should I give credence? Which one of my senses? Feeling? Seeing? Where does faith lie in all this? I'm not strong enough right now ... Not brave enough to have the faith I need. I'm trying. But I'm failing...woefully...at least I think I am. I'm tired. Exhausted.

Pretty good...but not great

I watched Julie and Julia yesterday. I thought it was quite a good movie. My favorite scene in the movie was the one in which Julia and her sister were standing in front of a full length mirror, checking themselves out after dressing up for a party, and Julia says, "Pretty good...but not great".

The movie made me remember the good old days when I enjoyed looking up all kinds of recipes and trying new ones out. Back then I had a willing guinea pig who ate everything I concocted, and with an encouraging smile at that. Julia makes these exotic dishes seem so effortless I think I'll make something new this week, maybe some Boeuf-Bourguignon ;)

Henry VIII

I recently started watching The Tudors - as in about a week ago. I guess on some random day I was bored, moseyed on over to Showtime On-Demand, and realized that The Tudors was the only Showtime show left to watch (who knew I'd like the United States of Tara so much, heh). Anyway so I started watching this old time , victorian-era-looking show, knowing I wouldn't like it and, by jove, I did!

Unfortunately, Comcast only has the first season so that's all I've watched so far. While watching, I was also looking up Anne Boleyn's and Henry VIII's history on wikipedia. It's interesting reading up on how the decisions of those in power way back when led to major changes in religion and people's perception of religion and the times. One silly girl set her sights on a King and changed the course of history. It's interesting how religion has always been such a driving force in wars, the definition of treason, and history. Silly silly girl.

How annoying is it that, at least according to the movies, and we all know how closely movies mirror the real life events eh, Henry VIII dragged Queen Katherine through the wringer just because of a silly, uncouth, depraved, sadistic, inhuman, vile woman. And his advisers/inner caucus? Men, one has to be careful from whom one takes advice. Everyone around the king was out to get something from him. Anne, her father and uncle, Charles Brandon( Duke of Suffolk - Henry Cavill = HUNK!), the cardinal, everyone. Tough position the king was in, I'll give him that, but to buy into the English reformation propaganda and ignore the voice of his people was unforgivable. Douchebag.

L O S T : The countdown begins!!

I am H U G E fan of the show LOST. So much so that it is never sufficient to watch the weekly show. No, I also visit the many blogs out there that analyze and dissect every frame of every episode. In previous seasons, LOST has aired on Wednesdays. Thursday mornings, instead of my usual perusing of news sites, I hit up my Google reader where I follow three LOST blogs. Awesome bloggers might I add - they truly over-analyze the previous day's episode, pulling in references from other TV shows (even those from the 70's), Egyptian mythology, religion, and any other over the top reference they set their sights on. I Love it. And when LOST is on, I can't do without my daily fix! - Reading the blog posts and returning daily to read comments from zillions of LOST fans with their varied theories. Did I mention I follow Hurley's blog (Jorge Garcia)?? Heh. That's how devoted I am :)I just found this on his blog. He's my favorite character on the show ( or wait, is it Sawyer, Sahid -swoon- , or Jin, definitely not Jack). Anywho I just found this on Jorge G.'s blog - He's definitely the funniest character on the show.

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H A P P Y N E W Y E A R ! ! !

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